What happens to me, and perhaps others during the last and final hours as the year comes to a close?
As one year is literally slipping away moment by moment, no way to hold it by it’s tail, pull it back into a moment where you just wish you’d have______ and make any last minute changes…what happens at the deepest core level?
For me, I start to take an inventory of my accomplishments…what did I overcome in 2012?
What major achievements do I have to look back at and give a very heartfelt THANKS to the Universe and give myself a pat on my own back for carrying out? I can genuinely take some credit for making some changes in my life. I can be specific, or vague, either way, it’s my story…
I have challenged myself in ways that I did not know I could, looked deeply into some of my behaviors and made a decision to make some huge changes, no matter how hard the work would be…I’m worth it.
I’ve learned through the pain and hurt through loss of love, lives and suffering in life, that it is my life and it’s up to me to make the changes, not anyone else.
I grabbed, (or quite possibly branded my tongue with) a phrase I heard in the last week of 2012, My problems may have someone else’s name on them, but the solution has my name on it….how can that be any clearer?
I have had one lesson after another, or one disaster after another, it depends how you look at it, because as far as I’m concerned, it’s all perspective.
I am becoming a better person, devoting hours and hours to my goal of changing the words of my inner voices and questioning my thought process, making changes here and there, to elevate my higher self as a person who lives life, not simply existing.
I am not one to make ‘New years resolutions’ I don’t believe in promises of massive personal overhaul. I have never ever been one to promise myself a major schedule including ‘diet, or exercise’ just because I feel I should, I just live in a conscientious way and try to be aware, making the small changes that need to be made to create a bigger impact overall, things don’t happen ‘suddenly’ as far as I’m concerned…they happen over a period of time, at times possibly a fast series of events, but, there’s usually more than one thing happening at a time, so it can’t really happen ‘suddenly’
Having said all that, what I'm really getting at is that my life has taken a very sharp turn towards positive change, but not without a major dedication from me, myself and I. Faith and fearlessness have played a a major role in my life. So much so, that I had to get the word Fearless (in Hebrew) tattooed on my left arm just to remind me to follow through, trust in myself, my strengths and follow my heart in times of insecurity.
The world did not end last week like 'predicted' by the Mayan's, however, I can definitely say that my old way of living did in fact end and my new beginning is here!
I am practicing GRATITUDE for all the challenges life offers, as they are opportunities for growth and expansion.
Happy New Years!
Bring it 2013!
Vera Johnson